Ugh, college is fun.
Real fun. I like it, but right now I'm uuugh! Things are stupid!
I have a paper due Friday (and I should be working on it now but am too tired and too distracted to)

A lot has happened. I've done a lot of growing. Unfortunately not vertically, and thankfully not horizontally either. Just a lot has gone on. I asked someone out and got turned down, then decided, I'm still in love. It's been 5-6 weeks since then. I'm not sure if anything has changed. It still seems all one sided. I hate being a nuisance, but I can't help how I feel. Dammit. It's annoying!

I've met a lot of different people. People that remind me of myself, or rather, a past version of myself. I fixed that problem in myself, and now I want to fix it in them. I'm turning into a Toru Honda! >_< But there's no way I can do anything as long as they resist. It's annoying. Everything seems hopeless.

I want to reach out to him, I want to tell him I love him, and nothing right now is going to change that. I want to tell him that he still has a chance unless some other guy comes and sweeps me off my feet. I want to tell him all the reasons why I love him. But that all seems hopeless.

I want to reach out to another friend. Two others actually, their problems aren't the same at all, but nonetheless, I want to change their thinking. No matter how hopeless it may be, they will be loved. I want to tell them what I learned and force four years of wisdom into their heads to prevent them from feeling as they do now. I want to change their lives. I want to heal their pain. I want to fix it all. But it all seems hopeless.

For now there's nothing I can do. And it bothers me. I want to attack, I want to be proactive. Surely, if I did it would all backfire. Haha, and then I'd end up being hated, now wouldn't I?

Well, that journal was far overdue. Maybe I can work on my paper now.

Oh, and once I get home to my scanner, there will be art. I'm planning on making all my friends pictures and sending them some over break. I suppose if any of you want one, feel free to note me with a request and address XD (Dunno why you would, but the offer still remains.)